# 25 (Do something that scares me)

I didn't think this would be a hard one to do.  Lets be honest sometimes just waking up in the morning and crawling off the top bunk of my bunk  bed scares me.  Also I am at the beginning of a new job so there are plenty of scary exciting things that are happening.  The one that I think was the scariest for me was during training.

I am at the bottom of a huge redwood tree, about to climb 75 feet up staples on the tree and jump off of a platform at the top.  I am harnessed in of course, but when I am at the bottom I get really nervous.   I know I have to do it because I am being trained, but part of me just wanted to opt out of it and stay on the ground, couldn't someone go twice or three times, I thought.  Yet it became my turn and I was put into a full body harness, strapped in everything was quadruple checked.  I started my climb.  The ladder was fine, no problem then you get to the staples that wind around the tree, almost like someone just  shot them up randomly.   So I am climbing and cracking jokes because that is what I do in situations I am uncomfortable in.  Everyone is really encouraging, and then I look up which was a mistake.  It looked like I was never going to make it.  I thought I had been climbing for ten day and I wasn't even halfway there.  Then I decided just to focus on the hand held right in front of me and before I knew it I was at the top of the leap of faith.  75 feet in the air and I was going to jump.  I think at that time most people say a prayer and I was defiantly one of  those people.  There is always the struggle in your mind that maybe something might go wrong.  I mean what if the tree fell over.  So I stood on the platform and grabbed for the trapeze that was really close to me.  Maybe a  little to close but I was really frightened. 

So the time came to jump and I stood on the platform, not sure if I could do it.  It was called the leap of faith for a reason.  I was about to take the leap.  All of the sudden I had done it, and I was being lowered to the ground.  I felt amazing, like i was flying. 

A lot of times it is the little things that scare me and I realize once I face those fears they aren't really that bad.  Its just facing the fears part that is hard.