I didn't think this would be a hard one to do. Lets be honest sometimes just waking up in the morning and crawling off the top bunk of my bunk bed scares me. Also I am at the beginning of a new job so there are plenty of scary exciting things that are happening. The one that I think was the scariest for me was during training.
I am at the bottom of a huge redwood tree, about to climb 75 feet up staples on the tree and jump off of a platform at the top. I am harnessed in of course, but when I am at the bottom I get really nervous. I know I have to do it because I am being trained, but part of me just wanted to opt out of it and stay on the ground, couldn't someone go twice or three times, I thought. Yet it became my turn and I was put into a full body harness, strapped in everything was quadruple checked. I started my climb. The ladder was fine, no problem then you get to the staples that wind around the tree, almost like someone just shot them up randomly. So I am climbing and cracking jokes because that is what I do in situations I am uncomfortable in. Everyone is really encouraging, and then I look up which was a mistake. It looked like I was never going to make it. I thought I had been climbing for ten day and I wasn't even halfway there. Then I decided just to focus on the hand held right in front of me and before I knew it I was at the top of the leap of faith. 75 feet in the air and I was going to jump. I think at that time most people say a prayer and I was defiantly one of those people. There is always the struggle in your mind that maybe something might go wrong. I mean what if the tree fell over. So I stood on the platform and grabbed for the trapeze that was really close to me. Maybe a little to close but I was really frightened.
So the time came to jump and I stood on the platform, not sure if I could do it. It was called the leap of faith for a reason. I was about to take the leap. All of the sudden I had done it, and I was being lowered to the ground. I felt amazing, like i was flying.
A lot of times it is the little things that scare me and I realize once I face those fears they aren't really that bad. Its just facing the fears part that is hard.